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Wednesday, August 30
[spinning]: always all ways (apologies, glances & messed up chances) - lostprophets
I spoke with my sister a few days ago and she was telling me about how much Tash misses me. And how she hated the fact that I left just as we were getting close and how I was finally opening up to her. I miss her too, and yeah, leaving just as I formed firm relationships with Tash, Hazel and Li Yen wasn't easy at all.
I don't know... I don't know why it's hard for me to open up. To trust people. I guess it's because I've been hurt too many times that I've given up on being open with anyone. I was always one to make rash judgements on a person and often, they came to back to bite me in the ass. But I am friendly in general, or so I've been told. But I tend to make a lot of friends, just not alot of close ones.
I'm apprehensive when it comes to talking about my problems, my fears, my greatest anxieties. Even with my sister, and I knew it saddens her that I couldn't tell her these things. At times, I feel it's unnecessary to share these problems with anyone else. I don't want to burden anyone with my problems, because they're mine. In some sense, I am a hypocrite, because I always advised my friends not to keep it locked up inside, to talk about them. But when it came to me, to practice what I preached, I couldn't. I suppose that's my downfall, that I keep things locked up, and they end up accumulating and at some point when it consumes me, I'll have a breakdown.
But now, I am slowly letting my defences down, a brick at a time. I'm coming to the realisation that there are friends God has blessed me with who will be there for me, who will be there to pick me up when I fall, to brush the dirt off of my shoulders.
Posted at 8:53 pm by niks
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Tuesday, August 29
and so it is, just like you said it should be
[spinning]: blower's daughter – damien rice
You're moving further away from me. Though it doesn't really change anything, knowing that you'd be half way around the world... another extra thousand miles away... pains me. You tell me it won't matter, that things will still be the same... but something tells me that it won't be. That you're going to drift further away, that I won't mean as much to you anymore and all I'll ever be is a distant memory to you. Tell me that it won't be this way. I know you already have, but I need to hear it again... just once more before you get on that plane. Help me placate these trepidations, these notions of mine. I am after all as you say... a silly woman.
Posted at 10:46 pm by niks
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Monday, August 28
Geekiest Moment in History
What are your Geekiest Moments in history? My answer to this Attack of the Show inspired question would probably have to be the moment I witnessed Aeris dying at the hands of Sephiroth in Final Fantasy VII and Cloud carrying her body in the pool. I cried watching that. Didn't we all? hahahaha. Oooh! And watching the trailer for Advent Children for the very first time!
Yeah, that would have to be it. And umm.. watching the opening scenes of Lord of the Rings:The Fellowship of the Ring, when Galadriel was talking about the Sauron and how the Ring came to be. I loved the book and watching in materialize right in front of me was just jaw-dropping. I had goosebumps. Regardless of what the critics say, I still think it was an awesome movie.
Another geekiest moment would be my very first Dungeons & Dragons game, the first roll of the d20. Yeah, I think playing D&D has cemented the fact that I am a GEEK. Hahahaha. Geeks are 133t ok. 1'll p4wn y0 a$$ f00!
Posted at 5:33 pm by niks
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Friday, August 25
[spinning]: sovereign hands – hillsong united
Yesterday, I got a phonecall from Empire asking me to come in for an interview today. I was still in bed and my voice was really throaty because of those bastards who keep burning crap outside of my flat. Anyway, after the phonecall I jumped out of bed and did a little dance. Hahaha. I was ecstatic!
So the interview happened today. It was a proper formal interview. My first so far here in Brunei. I dressed up in my *ahem* "power" suit and did my hair, etc. The guy that interviewed me was extremely nice. He gave me an application form to fill out and drilled me about my background, my passion, strengths & weaknesses and so on. He was really impressed with my results. 3.91 GPA. He'd better be! Hahaha. He was gutted that I wasn't Bruneian, if I was, he would've given me a job the very next day apparently.
So, I'm to go for my second interview on Wednesday, this time with the actual person I'll be working with in Event Sales. It's going really well so far! Thanks to everyone who's been praying for me. I can't thank you guys enough and of course, all this wouldn't have happened without Him. All praise and glory belongs to Him, my Adonai.
Posted at 5:29 pm by niks
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Wednesday, August 23
[spinning]: the theme song to saber rider!
ANYWAY! Moving on! Rainbow Brite! She had such a pretty horse. Man, would I like to wake up like her every morning. With the singing and the stardust and the rainbows and.. yeah. Hahaha. And thanks to Didi for the piccie. I stole it from her laptop. :D
The Muppets! I love Kermit the Frog. My other favourite characters are the Swedish Chef and Pepe the Prawn. Pepe's not just A prawn, he's a KING prawn. I wish I could say that the Swedish Chef was the inspiration behind me wanting to be a chef.. lol. He's so crazy!
I don't believe in Barney or the Teletubbies. I would never ever let any of my children or my nieces and nephews watch that crap. I do however believe in SESAME STREET! I grew up watching that almost everyday. I love Cookie Monster and Count Dracula. Always hated Big Bird though, that no good goody two shoes!
Dad used to record episodes of Dungeons & Dragons for us back then. I think I still have them somewhere.. Sheila was so cool with her Cloak of Invisibility. Tsk. If only my Alexia had that in D&D. And Bobby the Barbarian was such a little brat! But then again he was the youngest of the lot..
And who didn't get into the Power Rangers craze when it came out? Hahaha. When the movie came out, I thought it was the most important thing, like, ever. lol. Kimberly can take you down anytime f00! There's a Transformers movie in the works! Optimus Prime! Awesome! :D They better not mess it up though. I can't wait for it to come out!!
Last but not least, there's Akazukin Cha Cha. I used to watch it on Cartoon Network every afternoon. That was one WEIRD cartoon. I mean, HOLLY UP? wtf? And then she'll get additional weapons later on like Burning Phoenix or whatever. I was so crazy about it, I named a litter of hamsters we had after the characters. Sarebi <3! He's hot! Hahahaha.
And if you're wondering who that pig is under Sunshine Bear, that is none other than the DARK LORD, CHUCKLES, THE SILLY PIGGY. The main villain in Dave the Barbarian. A cartoon that is so absurdly stupid that you can't not love. Oh, to be a kid again.
Posted at 12:27 pm by niks
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Monday, August 21
burning bush! char siu pau!
[spinning]: alvarez- funeral for a friend
KOOL hosted a farewell party for Rini, Ruth and Sarah last night. Yeah, all three of them are leaving! Rini to the UK, Ruth to Seattle and Sarah to Melbourne. The party was fun, good food, good company. We even had a dance performance from the Powerpuff Girls. So cute! Then we got into a very competitive game of Bible Pictionary. Hahahaha. It was hilarious. The answers turned out to be really really simple, not directly related to the Bible. So most of our answers were too Chim. Especially with Rev. Johnny on our team. Which reminds me of that Pastors Gone Wild episode at Uncle Ayo's house... lol. Mum's attempt at drawing a cow ended up looking like a guinea pig with tits. This prompted Auntie Betty to shout out Nen Nen. And anything that resembled a cloud or sheep was a burning bush to me. And when at long last the answer was burning bush, i wasn't the one who guessed it. Yay me! Hahaha.
Posted at 12:24 pm by niks
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